Living with Darkness

I’m going to tell you a secret. My struggle with depression is not over. It was just this spring that I was determined to commit suicide.

Depression has been my lifelong nemesis.

Memories from as young as six years old contain feelings of deep sadness, hopelessness, helplessness, and worthlessness. I felt unloved, misunderstood, afraid, angry, and resigned. Those feelings continued through adolescence, my teen and college years, and on into adulthood. The intensity of my feelings waxed and waned, but they were always there in some way.… Read the rest