Fearing Negative Emotions

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” ~II Timothy 1:7

Fear. I’m confronting it in my life, learning to recognize its grip and its consequences. I’m amazed to realize how often fear rules me. Fear not only deprives me of loving relationships but also greatly hampers my growth in just about every area of which I can think.

  • faith and spiritual life
  • social interactions
  • emotions
  • business transactions
  • volunteer work
  • finances
  • interpersonal relations

I can think of specific instances in which fear has held me back or even harmed me in every single one of these areas.… Read the rest

Trust Issues

I love this blog. It’s my place. Yes, I invited you in when I made it public, but this is my space. I choose what to write, when to write, why to write. And my choices spasm and cycle, reflecting my life’s spasmodic cycling.

If I’ve been reading a lot, my blog tends to reflect that, being peppered with book reviews. (Like my last, oh, ten or so posts.) If I’m feeling angst-ridden, my blog posts mirror that angst.… Read the rest

Beyond the Bend

You know how you can travel a road and it stretches straight out in front of you into the seemingly endless distance? But then you travel a bit and are surprised to find a curve in the road?

That has been our 2013.

In January, Robert found out that he was in serious danger of losing his job.

With his boss’ help, he searched for and found another job within the same company. He started his new job the first week of March.… Read the rest

Old Faithful

The title makes you think of gushing water, doesn’t it?

I’m actually talking about Robert. And let me make it absolutely clear that I mean the title as a compliment, not as a put down. Robert is one of the most reliable people I know. If he says that he will do something, you can count on his keeping his word. He’s faithful at church, at work, to his friends, and, most important to me, to his family.… Read the rest

When SuperMom Loses Her Super – Part 3

If you know me in real life, please understand that making this public is very hard for me and that I may not actually want to talk about this in person. You’re welcome to try to talk to me about it, but don’t be surprised or offended if I don’t respond in-depth.

If you’re just joining me, you can read part 1 here and part 2 here.

Little Bear was born in March, 2011. The pregnancy was my most difficult, and I was thrilled to finally welcome my little fella into the world.… Read the rest

5 or 6 Children?

When I wrote my first post about the reasons I love Robert, I mentioned that he is the father of our six children. And in-real-life friends thought I had made a mistake. Because they all know we have five children – Pookie Bear, Miss Muffet, Baby Bear, Buddy Bear, and Little Bear.

The truth is that we have six children. And I am always conflicted about how to answer when people ask how many children we have.… Read the rest

My Beloved and My Friend

That’s him. My handsome fella. The guy who captured my heart in 1998 and who endears himself to me a bit more each day. The father of our six children. The guy who usually appears serious but has a serious streak of fun hidden in him.

We’ve been married since 1999. This year we’ll celebrate 14 years of marriage. (How is that even possible?!) And I look forward to many more decades of living with and loving Robert, my Mr.… Read the rest