Fearful Courage

“Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear — not absence of fear.” ~Mark Twain

I am tired of fear. I am tired of how it binds limbs, gags mouths, blinds eyes, and destroys lives. I am tired of how it robs us of peace, joy, love, community, and honesty. I am tired of how it cloaks us in shadows that seem to protect us yet only serve to prevent us from being known.

Fear still affects me, but I have chosen to no longer allow it to master and control me.… Read the rest

Living with Darkness

I’m going to tell you a secret. My struggle with depression is not over. It was just this spring that I was determined to commit suicide.

Depression has been my lifelong nemesis.

Memories from as young as six years old contain feelings of deep sadness, hopelessness, helplessness, and worthlessness. I felt unloved, misunderstood, afraid, angry, and resigned. Those feelings continued through adolescence, my teen and college years, and on into adulthood. The intensity of my feelings waxed and waned, but they were always there in some way.… Read the rest

The Parable of Three Miners*

* Note: This is not intended to be sacrilegious. This is my sense of humor exhibiting itself by converting my thoughts into the language and method of conveyance in which I’ve recently been immersed.

Now it came to pass that Revka was gathered together with her friends [virtually]. And she began speaking a parable unto them.

There were once three friends named Joshua, Hal, and Cayden. One day, they decided to search for gold. They made their plans, purchased supplies, and then traveled to a gold field which legend declared to be so full of gold that anyone who went seeking was sure to find some.Read the rest

Uncovering Modesty: Finding “Modest” in the Bible (Part 1)

Studying modesty in the Bible

The topic of modesty in the Bible has so many facets that I felt a bit overwhelmed when deciding where to begin my study. Then I laughed and told myself, “Hey! You’re studying modesty. Why not start with that word?” Strong’s Concordance informed me that “modesty” is not used in the Bible, but “modest” is. So that is where I started. The word modest is found only once.

I Timothy 2:9In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modest apparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;

There you have it.… Read the rest

Uncovering Modesty: Laying the Foundation

Now that you know why I’m doing this study, I need to share how I’ll be conducting my study.

I will use the following resources.

  • Holy Bible (King James Version)
  • Strong’s Concordance – primarily used for cross reference purposes and to find out what word was used; another blog’s article helped me understand the correct and incorrect ways to use a concordance
  • Hebrew or Greek Lexicon – to learn the definitions of words used in the language in which the Bible was written
  • Webster’s 1828 Dictionary – the English language has changed quite a bit since the King James Version was translated; the 1828 dictionary will help me better understand what the translators intended to convey with the words they chose

I discovered blueletterbible.org, which combines in one place nearly all my desired tools along with others.… Read the rest

In Perfect Time (Book Review)

Lately, the same messages seem to crop up everywhere I turn.

Face your fears. Labels others apply to you only define you if you let them. There is always hope. No one is beyond the possibility of redemption and love.

In Perfect Time packages these messages in an engrossing tale filled with relatable characters and emotions I will not soon forget. The last page of the novel did not end my engagement. In the days following, I pondered the lessons learned and the resulting changes, making application to my own life.… Read the rest

Uncovering Modesty: Introduction

Modesty… Preachers preach about it, writers write about it, and people argue about it. Why am I adding my thoughts to the multitudes of thoughts that have already been voiced on this topic? What could I possibly have to say that hasn’t been said already?

To answer those questions, I’ll need to share my relationship with modesty.

I grew up in a very conservative Christian home, and modesty has been part of my life for as long as I can remember.… Read the rest